sorry that i hurt you ♥

i love you more than i could say ,

but somehow , i really is the kind of person that needs freedom alot .

i hate being tied , i hate being tell not to do this or that .

i knew all you said is just for my own good .

but , i just dont like it .

i dislike people to control my life , 

especially stopping me from doing whatever i like .

i need my freedom .

once i am not married to you , i still got the rights

to do whatever i want , whatever i like , without anyone controlling me .

no matter how deeply i am in love with you ,

it doesnt give you any excuses to control my life ,

or tell me what to do .

gosh , i was over heated when i think bout this problem between us .

i wanted to solve this as soon as possible .

but somehow , i am still young , i really wanted to go out and enjoy .

sometimes , i even have the urge to go out and hang with my friends ,

flirting guys around us , but i just dont know how .

last night when you stopped me from going clubbing with my friends  ,

i was darn fed up seriously .

i am different with other girls , cant you see it?

i can make you damnly obsessed with me ,

but at the same time , if you doesnt goes on with my ways ,

i would breaks your heart VERY easily .

i have a playgirl background , i admit .

so what? playgirl is also a human , and a human can change from bad to good .

sigh , never mind . i knew you will get upset with what i said last night .

yeah , i want to remain single . i wanna enjoy my life before committed to a relationship .

i dont want you to tied me to your life , your soul and so on .

i just want a secure relationship without any pressure .

i knew you all will think that i am asking too much for

a near-to-be perfect guy like him .

but i dont mind ,

this is what appears in my heart and i will tell him directly without fail .

i wont care how people thinks bout me .

about how i doesnt know how to appreciate ,

about how i doesnt know how to love ,

about how i doesnt know how to understand ,

about how i doesnt know how to care ,

all i know is , i am once obsessed with a person who claims himself to

love me forever , i am once crazy in love with him ,

i appreciate him more than anything , sacrifice everything and put many 

effort to satisfy him . 

but in the end , all these doesnt means anything to him at all .

so why must i do the same now and in the end getting disappointment at the end .

urggghhhh , i might be selfish if that is what you guys think .

sorry that i love you♥

sorry that i hurt you ,

sorry that i make you disappointed ,

sorry that i need you ,

sorry that i held you tight ,

sorry for making you love me .

you taught me how to smile ,

how to cry , how to think .

sorry for wasting your time .

and now i am sorry that i hurt you ,

sorry that i changed you ,

sorry and i wish i could make it right .

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